Like I said, don't beat yourself up. It won't do anything but make it worse.
You're a smart guy. You can sort through it as long as you have a good starting point. She was/is interested in you. That is a positive. Start from there, keep perspective, and see where it goes. Maybe it will fall your way at a later time. The important thing to keep in mind is that you need to stay in good graces (not come across as a clingy nut), in case that time comes.
Don't be so hard on yourself brother. Just remember, everything eventually works out with time. Seven + years ago I was drifting in and out of crappy relationships with some women who were real psychological abusers. Today I am happily married with three amazing children. It will come together for you too. You just have to believe!
And, another night of waking up at 5am and not being able to fall back asleep. Ugh...
Well, I'm back with the complete opposite. I finally got her in my bed and, apparently, it made her realize that she is really in love with the other dude. Currently, we haven't spoken a word to one another since Monday and I was the last one to say anything to her being, basically, she will get the space she needs to be happy with him and I'll be here if she ever needs me/wants to be friends/etc. So, unfortunately, it is what it is. I've stopped dwelling on it and just letting it be what it is. If she contacts me again, great, if not, then so be it. I decided I can't be in the headspace of loving her and getting nothing back from her anymore so, that's where it is at the moment. Like I said in the thread about JB's friend and Smooth's mom, utterly meaningless compared to what they are dealing with, but I thought I'd put it here since there's a pretty definitive end to the saga that is my shitty love life.
So, I figured it was about time to post in here again about my love life. Notice, immediately, that terrible is no longer an adjective for it. That would be because I met someone online shortly before all that crazy shit with the other chick ended and have been going out with that someone for a little over two months now. She's really damn awesome and we've been having a great time together. It seems like forever ago that all that dumb shit from the past posts happened. Life really did go on and in a VERY positive way for me.
Good deal, mors.
Don't marry, just fuck her alot.
Thanks man. So far, it's been a lot of fun with some bumps along the way, but, it's been totally worth it so far.
Marriage is definitely no where in the vocabulary yet, but I must say, down the road, I could see it. We complete each other's crazy in a strange ball of craziness that just seems to work (so far, at least).
Thanks snoop. It's that type of mentality that I used to more on and find greener pastures. No reason to dwell on the past or let the past define the future. So far, it's worked in the positive, very well.
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