After getting about 3 hours of sleep Sunday night, I took a 2 hour nap after work Monday and then was up all night. Fuck.
I'm using Tapatalk 2 and the Cleveland Browns STILL suck.
Haven't been able to sleep all week. I had to put my cat down on Sunday. I miss the little guy so much. He was my family before I got married and had children...
4am and I'm still awake... (sigh) Almost seems pointless to go to bed now...
I'm the only registered member of TGT on now. Weeeeee. Thought maybe taking the sleeping pill last night with my first day back to work (from a sinus infection) Monday would not require me to do that again. Wrong.
The dude abides.
So, not to sound too much like a little bitch or anything, but I haven't been able to sleep worth a fuck for the past 2 weeks or so and it's all because of a woman. I made the mistake of falling in love with a woman that's already in another relationship. Normally, that wouldn't be a problem, but she loves me too, but she loves him as well. She's had a fucked up life and the relationship she's in is the first good one she's had and she mentally can't move beyond that (even though I know damn well we'd work well together [we're both fucked in the head]). What's worse, I work with her and see her every day at work. We're trying to be friends, but I'm insane and unable to handle it some days. She's the first woman I've ever met that I literally could see spending the rest of my life with and it's driving me fucking crazy that I can't be more than friends with her right now and I can't walk away. Friends, I'm pathetically fucked right now and I need to be awake in 5 hours...
Thanks man.
It's a bitch, especially because I wear my emotions on my sleeve like a big dumb idiot. Just gotta keep that shit under wraps and roll with the punches. It'll all work out in the end.
I'm basically at the end of her rope. I have to scale shit WAY back, or she's going to just walk away. So, yeah, it's not the end, but it's damn close. Definitely need to just keep things cool. We are great together as friends when there isn't my sappy shit coming from my brain so I just need to focus on that and just stop all the other shit. It's definitely a case of letting her go and, if it's going to happen, she'll come back.
Again, appreciate it man.
Yeah man. This is really the first time that it's been reciprocated but, in the end, not going to happen because of my bad timing (I'm an idiot and didn't realize 3 months ago that she liked me before she got with the dude that she's with now - talk about fucking hating myself...).
Appreciate the thoughts though man.
Bro, if she was interested in you BEFORE she got with the other dude, she'll be back. I mean, the odds are really small that she stays with this guy forever. You just have to stay in good graces and not obsess. You're good. :up;
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